Before this happens my family specially my husband has suggest me to visit a doctor because recently, it seems I have habit of short memory, keep forget things. This year I have dealing with so many personal matters. Incident has happened yesterday. Firt, I suppose to buy 2 birthday gift 1 for my foster son, and 1 for my niece yesterday. Since I have something to return at Marshall same mall (Great Mall, Miltpitas, CA) the store I plan to shop for these gift. I went to Marshall to returned these items without receipt because someone gave that to my son on his birhday last August. Then, when the return process, the cashier told me do not let this happen any more since my name on the list of return with out receipt of Marshall. It makes me alarmed I should think more before I purchase any things from their store in futre. Finishing return, I go shop a and find something. However, unconciously, I put these stuff on top the bag that I used to bring the returned items into the store to return early that still is in the shopping cart, so I decided to leave layaway these itm for a while ( approx. less than hour) because I plan to visit other store GAP outlet (is my foster son and niece favorite store) to see I may find better gifts for the kids. Then I will finalize what to buy for them since layaway service is free and can avoid hassel for unwanted items being returned. Then I think the bag is a good use for this case and put these item in but the bag is wide open and the items are very expose because I plan to layaway them. Susdenly, I realized that it is time to pick up my son from his Languages school. I start to panic because I've not done shopping yet and hate to go backward traffic back to the mall. It seems problem start from here, I conciously head out store like a free person, no alarm sounded therefore I did realized what I doing, Oh, god I was out of my mind. This never happend in my life so I don't have idea what the consequence from the incident. I could not open my mounth to explan about it when I big tall guide pad my shoulder and tell me while his hang point to those things in the shopping cart:" mam, you did not pay those items but you leave the store". I had feeling I was back to reallife, I so strange about what he is taking about and look at what he point to, oh, god I just open my eyes looking at him and say: Oh, where I am going to instead to layaway department. It hard to believe but it happend to me.
Those tall big guys took me to a room inside the store with a lot of cameras projecting all the activities of the store floor. They told me that they saw my action and concluding "I stealing these merchandises." They took my purse, get all my credits cards, my ID, my social card, they yell at face with alot, lot bad word that I wish my son never heard that. I hit my head to tell myseft am in trouble now for what I totally have no intention to do. Still with 1st tall guy ask me to corporated with by admitting I was stealling and why I stealing while have a store credit to use, have money to buy. I told him I have no clue what happen and sit there and keep asking them to let me make a phone to find out have my son being pick up .... I extremely worry my son situation just hope he was smart enough to call home then my husband will pick him. That tall, big guy toll me if I admit stealing as he think. He will just issue a store ticket and let me go but I keep saying not intention to do and not realize what I doing ..... Then he pretend to ask someone to call a cop. At this point, I think my piority is get out there to see my son AQAP and did plan to such thing so I did not experience to deal wiht at all then I ask him if I admit even truly no intention so you let me go but he told me that it is too late for me. A cop comes cited me a ticket similar to traffic ticket that requires me to appear at a court the ticket assigning.
I need advice to over come this curse of life. I hate myself. I decide to tell my husband, He believes what I said and suggest me not to go shopping any more without him.
My questions :
1, Currently, I have a temporary job via a job agency, does the police officer will contact my agency to teminate my job. I just got this job more than three months after out of job for 3 years. That may be the reason I am become insane like now.
2, The ticket states:
Correctable violation : NO
Description of violation: Retail theft
Misdemeanor or infractin: M
Brooking required ----- what is it meaning to me? The officer ask me go to Mil. city police department to ask for brooking within two weeks from yesterday. He told me I can ask for an attoney for free of charge that is what the expert in the forum call "appointed lawyer"? If I have appointed lawyer provide by the city should I look for one my own, which one will have more favor to my case ? And I have to appear at "Superior court" no later than 01/03/2006.

3, If I have a lawyer represent me, how much usually cost my case.

4, If I do whatever the court order, does it clear my record, because I want left everything behind me regard whether I did or not. Could request an interpreter because I don't have knowledge of law languages to express myself.

This is really another "Believe it or not" show on TV.

Thanks for any advice, thank very much.