hey... this site is such a blessing right now.. i really need help.. and im so desperate to get it that i dunno wat to do.
Im a young lady living in Florida and I just turned 17 in December.
My parents are divorced and I just live with my mom, my dad is a dead beat bum who won't take me in for anything.
My mom is a very very very abusive person. She is from India and my dad is American and she just.. doesn't understand why American teens are not the same as Indian ones.
I'm not rebellious, I get very very good grades, I am a senior in high school and have a 3.78 GPA, I dont drink, dont party, I basically have no life.
I am an only child.
My mom got turned in for the second time in my life in October of 2006 and I got taken away from home for four monthes.. and then of course the stupid system sent me back home. I was so happy for the first time in my life being away from her. My godparents, who my mother HATES for turning her in, were going to take me in.. they live in NC. But mom made a good lawyer and brought me home because I wouldnt testify against mommy in court.
Things have gotten so bad I started cutting myself to ease the pain.. which is a STUPID move. I havn't done that stuff since the last time I was taken away. But its been a year now being back at home.. and things have slowly gotten very very bad again. I'm scared to be around her, I keep a box of food in my room so I dont have to go outside of my room when she is home.. She hurts me... And I have no where to go.
She never lets me forget that its my fault taht she got turned in last time, that she lost her daycare lisence. She just got her lisence back and I dont wanna have her loose it again by going to the system for help.
I've been trying to convince her to sign papers giving guardianship of me to either my old foster parents here, my godparents in NC, or the paralegal who helped me out of the house the last time. All of whom are willing to take me in. But I dont really wanna loose my rights as a minor. and she won't sign any papers cause her lawyer told her not to. And she's telling everyone im a bad teen to win them over to her side... I dont even talk to her... I stay away, do my chores and homework, and give her space.. when we see eachother.. ohh its hard.
I just.. I really need to get out of here. This house is so depressing and scary that I dont think I can take it any more.. Id rather die than live this way anymore.. yet I WILL NOT go to the state to get me out.
The only thing my mom is willing to let me do is emancipation, because she says if she signs over custody she's still gonna be responsible for me in ways.
However I dont have a job right now because she took away my car and I lost it last time... and no I didnt do anything to lose the car.. well.. I kept my shoes out and that was her trigger for the week. But yea.
Emancipation is the only way she'll let me go. I'm so desperate to get out of here before she kills me.. is there any way I can get parental rights to my godparents without her handing them over and involving the system?
Can mom have me emancipated against my will even if I dont have a job?... How?
If I decide that I want emancipation by some slim chance I'll have to quit school to support myself and get the income required.
I dont know what to do.. I had such dreams for college and everything.. Emancipation will ruin everything for me because if I do emancipation I'm moving out on my own... and will probably have to get my GED.
Any suggestions.. I need help.. I'm desperate. I'm tired of hiding the bruises, I'm tired of living in fear. I have one year left to be a teen.. 5 monthes if you count high school life... I just want to live those monthes in peace. So that I have some good memories before I meet uncle sam. Hellllppppppppppppppppppppp.
-Desperate Teen Chick![]()

