Much to my (well-deserved) humiliation was caught with $12.95 of goods at a grocery store last night for the first time in my life after paying for the rest of the items. A LP associate approached me before I went outside and called the police. Of course 3 of them show up and I got arrested and taken to the station where I was booked, photographed, etc. I posted the $374 bond with the money I had on me (I know that I am STUPID, ok?), charged with petty theft/shoplifting and released. The store also took all of my information and photo as I am banned from there for life (am too embarrassed to ever go there again anyway so that's not a problem). The cop told me that this would stay on my record for a year and then what, I don't know. I am to appear in court on Nov.28 Apparently the judge assigned to the case usually asks for fines, diversion, etc. instead of jail time for the first offense. I am willing to get what I deserve and feel that I need help (obviously). The NASP has a self-study course that is $65 for shoplifters, I looked up shoplifters anonymous but was unable to find anything in the entire state of Ohio. Interesting that the resources available to help people stop who want to stop are so thin on the ground. Couldn't even find a self-help book in the library system. There is counseling available at work and I made an appointment but am hesitant about revealing everything to her, so am planning on talking about the anxiety, anger, etc. that I think led me to shoplift. I do have a few questions though:
Would it be worthwhile to pay $1500+ to retain a lawyer for the court date ? I understand that the judge usually plea bargains with first time offenders anyway and I am sure I'll be facing substantial fines, etc. regardless.
I called the court and the guy that answered said that a public defender would only be appointed after the first court date-- what if I figure out a deal on that date, should I reject it just to get representation?
Should I plead guilty or no contest ? I have been on a variety of anti-depressants, anti-psychotic medications in the last year and while I am definitely not blaming them for my actions, I'm obviously struggling with some personal issues and don't know if I should bring up my willingness to get help with these as a factor in my case.
How does one get records expunged or sealed ? Also would being sent to a diversion program/pay fines be counted as a conviction and would i have to note that on employment applications? Does the arrest still show up somewhere ?
I am willing to keep posting on the progress/outcome for everyone's information. and DON'T STEAL

