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rosaa
I'm new to this site. I really need some help.
Though I have read the previous posts-which I found really useful-I still have few concerns.
I have been caught shoplifting at M&S, it was my first time. I feel miserable, I feel I want to run far away. I don't know what happened to me, I'm a well educated 28 yrs old person, but somehow someway I had a fake feeling when I did it that it's not wrong and I felt sometrhing like the begining of an addiction!Do you know what an addiction is?
I was caught outside the door after stealing cloths worth 150 pounds, then they took me to a private room and called the manager, I felt I'd rather die then.
At first I tried to deny saying that I exchanged some cloths for these, I know it's silly but I was so ashamed to confess. Then they said we don't believe you and they will call the police unless I admitt, so I admitted, that's when they asked me for an ID with proof of adress, I gave them a hospital letter which has my name, adress and date of birth.
then they told me you have to pay for these, I used my credit card.
They then gave me a trespass notice and told me that I'm not allowed to enter any branch of M&S in UK for the rest of my life and that they have my photo on the CCTV, so if I enter any M&S I will get caught and they will call the police.
I went home and I've been thinking about this for the last 4 days, I can't believe that it happened, it feels like a dream! I really hate myself for this.
What I want to know, will there be any long term consequences for this?
will there be any record of this?With the store yes
will this be in my records if I want to apply for jobs or in any legal issue?
will I be able to get over this by all means?Without Police involvement there is no record
I haven't told any of the people I know, not even my family, I'm afraid I might need to enter any M&S store with them?Not a good idea if you do you can be arrested for tresspassing and/or your orignal theft will I still be recognized after a long time? even if my shape changes? ofcourse I won't be using my credit card, I will pay by cash if I need to.
can someone pleasehelp me in this, I really need some help.
One thing more, I'm pregnant and I think that's why they were lean with me. But the problem is that I'm in a lot of stress which I believe may affect my baby. I'm really stupid and I don't know why I did that..I'm a good person, I shouldn't have done it.
I'm really freaked out, I don't want anybody to know about this, I'm so ashamed..
basically everything seemed to end when I left the store, they told me not to come again or I will be arrested, and I sometimes think that they won't bother themselves anymore thinking about me. That was all. but sometimes I get so obsessed and I get so afraid of having this nightmare following me for the rest of my life. I just want to get over. I feel so guilty, so ashamed, and everything bad..I hope it ends.