My question involves child abuse or neglect in the State of: Illinois
My mother has always disliked me and has presented me as an over sexually charged child. She allowed me to date an 18 yr old when i was 14. I was a virgin. (1987)4 months later he date raped me and never spoke to me again when i freaked out. While in the ICU after ODing, my mom asked if I had had sex w him. I cried and told her he raped me. I then asked if she would punish him. She said, 'no, honey, we wouldnt want all those people getting on the stand testifying to what a slut you are.' I died inside in a way that made suicide seem like too nice an end for such filth as me. My next boyfriend date raped me when he found out I had 'done it' already. I told myself that my mother must have meant that His friends would say I was a slut. I moved to AZ, but couldnt shake the damaged person my mother told me I was, especially when my marriage was struggling. I confronted her in 2004 and told her what I had said to myself in order to move on in life. She didnt comment, so I changed the subject as my anxiety soared. 2016, I confronted my parents about how they handled my statutory date rape decades earlier. My mother kept insisting i was a slut and needed to be disciplined. My father didnt know i had told my mother i was raped. He refuses to tell my mother, nor me, that I deserved protection and defense rather than shame and blame. She continues to slut shame me to this day. I need them to know they are not my judge and jury. The laws and society agree that I deserved better than how my parents handled the sexual crime against me. I continue to endure PTSD type symptoms at the very thought of my parents even though I have cut them off from myself. My kids need their grandparents, but my mother is poisoning my 5 year old against me. I want to tell them i have a voice. I gave rights, too. I am a human being. Their creation whom they destroyed. I forgive them, but they wont apologize. They feel they did nothing wrong with regards to this. Any advice?