There is no legal question here. This is a vent. We're sorry you're having a bad time. You need to get some good counseling for yourself to help you deal with these issues, and make sure your children are in counseling as well. You sound as if you are totally beaten down, totally not moving on, totally rehashing, engaging, and deeply involved with this person who is still very much controlling your life. Continue to retain your attorney, follow your attorney's advice carefully. DO NOT have any unnecessary contact with your ex. Use such tools as Family Wizard to communicate with him. You cannot "predict" the way the custody evaluator will lean, but you can move yourself forward as creatively as possible, trying to be perceived as the more sane and reasonable and mature of the two parents. Worrying constantly and complaining about how awful things used to be and now it's so unfair that nobody believes you as much as you think they should are not productive. Get that counseling.

