Well Deputy Dog what you'd see if you read my response better was I said I'm not a SERIAL criminal, not 'serioys'. And yes, regardless of how you choose to want to word this, it WAS a mistake. Yes, I made a conscious decision, whether I was in my right mind at the time I or not, I still made that very stupid decision, sometimes in life a bad decision isade and a person makes a MISTAKE. Mistake by definition means 'an action or judgment that is misguided or wrong'. I don't know how YOU classify it or if you have your own personal definition of the word, but to me that sounds EXACTLY like what I did, made a an action, and judgment that was misguided and wrong. Therefore...a MISTAKE.

You seem to think you're much more researched than me in the area of mental health and it's relation to these types of crimes, perhaps you are I don't know. I don't feel the need to be snarky with you and try to prove I know more than you, I don't know you. I know VERY WELL that my mental health issues and things I am going thru are MY responsibility to overcome, hence why I'm already actively, since before this incident, seeking professional help. I go to counseling twice a week and see a psychiatrist once a month.

Yes, because I LOVE MY CHILDREN MORE than life itself I do not want to spend even a night in jail! NOT because I don't want to pay for my crime, because as you said, by MY OWN admission, I DID commit the crime, but because my children need me and I need them and I love them more than my own life, and because despite the judgment you've made about me I did NOT PLAN ahead of time to do this incredibly STUPID THING I did and mess up my life or in ANY WAY hurt my children. My LIFES GOAL from this point forward wil be to NEVER do ANYTHING this stupid EVER AGAIN or EVER again repeat my offense...just for your personal info.

I did not once say that my mental health issues excuse me, that ANYTHING excuses me from what I did or that I don't deserve to be punished, or ask to be felt sorry for. I want to pay for my crime, and I know that will include monetary payment as well as most likely a record that follows me, I don't care if I have to be humiliated picking up trash on the roads, go to court mandated classes, ANYTHING. Do I want to go to jail and be separated from my amazing children who love their mother? No, I'm sorry I dont. Yes, I KNOW I need to NOT be a repeat offender! I NEVER planned on being one!! Not everyone who makes a MISTAKE, yes it WAS a MISTAKE, at least according to the Oxford Dictionary, of this calibur, is a bad person. Were you to meet me on the street, or in a casual setting and not know I'd done this stupid thing you'd probanly think I was a very nice person and enjoy my company.

ALL I was looking for in this thread was a little information, or advice, from anyone who might have possibly seen or been through a similar experience or situation. But a lot of people who respond on these posts seem to be doing it for the sole purpose of being mean and judgmental. I've read some of your other Rey's on other threads, and no, you just don't seem very nice, I'm sorry. Any way you might want to think about giving your responses based on your knowledge, whatever that may be, but not do it in such a sarcastic and belittling way? Just something to think about. It's called common human decency, which even people who have made REPEAT MISTAKES in their lives, deserve.