Harassment by People in My Town

[IsTherejustice]

I think you need to see a doctor to help you with your emotions. Sometimes talking to a psychologist can help you realize problems in your life, or they can also help you articulate yourself better. I think you should go to a doctor in a different town away from the town you feel unsafe in. You should also try to get a support group going, but don't constantly try to be someones friend (communicate) with them if you get the feeling they don't like you or has told you that they don't like you. I understand your family is poor and may need your help, but sometimes you gotta help yourself before you can help anyone or you will end up in a situation where you can no longer help anyone and will need assistance yourself. Sounds like you have passion and strength. Getting a degree is not easy. I suggest you cont. School to get a BA. You should also leave that town if you feel unsafe. Sometimes alot of coincidences happens. I feel like my life is full of coincidence, like driving one day on the freeway, I ran something over, a few mins later the light for my oil change came one, my oil life was at 15%. I thought I might have cracked my oil pan, that wasn't the case though, I just forgot I needed an oil change. I still get lost reading your posts, in some parts idk who your talking about because you skip from one person to another then back to the same person. Your facts are not strong enough. You have to think real hard about what's been going on. I suggest you start a journal and document things a person does to you that you feel is part of this towns conspiracy to run you out. I would like to know more facts if there is more. You cannot base someone looking at your lips then mistreating you and if that was so, it sounds petty and you shouldn't be bothered by that. Here's my email, I have some questions about things you said. Mnsaeliew@gmail.com

[Yoyobaby]

What did you learn when you looked up apophenia?

That I'm not qualified to diagnose myself with mental illness. Here is a message that i sent.
Remember the first time i told you about the first time you told me you loved me? We were laying in bed and i was just talking shit. I was on my back and you were on your side next to me. I had my eyes closed but could still tell when you smiled at it. When i was done you placed your forehead on my and i felt so safe. Thats when i knew id never be alone again. Thats when you licked my face. It was gross. I was like what the **** and you got on your knees and gave me a sad puppy dog face. I smiled cuz your a dork. Then you rested your head on my chest and huged me. Thats when i knew id never know want again. Thats when you bit my nipple. And it hurt. Who bits someones nipple....

These circulated. Im famous. I get followed by people and people know me everywhere i go. I can also act out different caritors. I would offten write about healthy relationship. People expect it from me. Lots of them are positive and like me. Ive had a woman try to act her out to the t in order to win me over. It was nuts. I'm a roll model. But i was already having issues and they became larger. Right now i have tons of pressure from the Africen amrican community for some content that wrote about. But it was not races. I grew up in poverty and that just how it is. I can walk out on a manufacturing floor and take it over in less then 6 months. Ive done it. Not by fear witch is typical but by respect. This does not pay my bills. So i dont. Im also not scared of anyone. I try to act like it when its expected of me but im not. I will not scwerm for a wage that does not provide me with necessary resources to maintain it. This is what i believe has gotting me a bad reference from my ex employer.
Growing up poor no relationships are true. Everything is leverage. When i started doing well the dynamics of all my relationships changed. Family and friend became beggars. Middle class individual who had looked at me inferior and in some cases an individual needing there guidance now looked at me with spite.
Im coming up and being held back for being a good person.

[Disagreeable]

Humpty Dumpty was pushed.

That I'm not qualified to diagnose myself with mental illness. Here is a message that i sent.
Remember the first time i told you about the first time you told me you loved me? We were laying in bed and i was just talking shit. I was on my back and you were on your side next to me. I had my eyes closed but could still tell when you smiled at it. When i was done you placed your forehead on my and i felt so safe. Thats when i knew id never be alone again. Thats when you licked my face. It was gross. I was like what the **** and you got on your knees and gave me a sad puppy dog face. I smiled cuz your a dork. Then you rested your head on my chest and huged me. Thats when i knew id never know want again. Thats when you bit my nipple. And it hurt. Who bits someones nipple....

These circulated. Im famous. I get followed by people and people know me everywhere i go. I can also act out different caritors. I would offten write about healthy relationship. People expect it from me. Lots of them are positive and like me. Ive had a woman try to act her out to the t in order to win me over. It was nuts. I'm a roll model. But i was already having issues and they became larger. Right now i have tons of pressure from the Africen amrican community for some content that wrote about. But it was not races. I grew up in poverty and that just how it is. I can walk out on a manufacturing floor and take it over in less then 6 months. Ive done it. Not by fear witch is typical but by respect. This does not pay my bills. So i dont. Im also not scared of anyone. I try to act like it when its expected of me but im not. I will not scwerm for a wage that does not provide me with necessary resources to maintain it. This is what i believe has gotting me a bad reference from my ex employer.
Growing up poor no relationships are true. Everything is leverage. When i started doing well the dynamics of all my relationships changed. Family and friend became beggars. Middle class individual who had looked at me inferior and in some cases an individual needing there guidance now looked at me with spite.
Im coming up and being held back for being a good person.

[Dogmatique]

OP, did we ever establish your location? Michigan, right?

[Yoyobaby]

OP, did we ever establish your location? Michigan, right?

Yes

[cbg]

Apophenia is the condition of seeing patterns where they do not exist. Which is what I think you are doing.

[Yoyobaby]

Apophenia is the condition of seeing patterns where they do not exist. Which is what I think you are doing.

Agreed, I see patterns. I'm sure in some insurances at point, I am wrong. However, not in all cases.

[Dogmatique]

Agreed, I see patterns. I'm sure in some insurances at point, I am wrong. However, not in all cases.

The bigger problem is not being able to discern the two.

[Yoyobaby]

I am so scared to view this now because i so dont want to be crazy. But, my dad was over bearing. Growing up i had to read his bodu langue to respond appropriately. Im realy good at it now. I notice small things. With my son i noticed rapped blinking. Most people would not think anything of it but i seen it as a stress indicator. Ive also notice once when i was holding my hand down to show him something as i walked towards him he became frightened. Overly frightened. I figured someone useing that body poacher was messing with him. I notice other stuff to. Like going to a store and beingable to tell who trained someone by thair body language. It gives me an advantage some time but is also a problem to. I do have an issue and its because i can read people. I turn it off most times. Try to. Some one giveing me diraction with fales reasoning behind it sucks. If you put me in two different groups and only one person from each group knew each other i could tell from there body language. I could be one of those fake physics.
This is how i noticed my brothers involvement. My mother started acting like his girlfriend and at work they knew to much.
But im not crazy.

[cbg]

I'm not saying the things you are noticing aren't happening. I'm sure if you saw the HR manager look at your lips and smile that's what happened. However, that does not mean that she is part of a grand conspiracy to prevent you from getting a job; it means that her eyes happened to fall on your lips and she has been trained to smile at applicants. It's not that you're seeing things that aren't there; it's that you're assigning a meaning to those things that isn't so.