Older Teen is Arguing With Her Parents

[Fiametta]

My question involves child abuse or neglect in the State of: New Hampshire

I have had increasing issues with my family. I will try and give you a quick run down.

1) My mother in a very bad place in life. She is suffering, she never leaves the house anymore. She is a depressed insomniac who is dealing with benzo withdrawl. I worry everyday that she will try and "end it." She will not seek help. I fight with her, mainly over cursing. I get frustrated with her often and too easily. She has been this way for about 18 months now.

2) My father has become verbally abusive and lays his hands on me. He also drinks much more than he used to. A couple of times he has put his hands around my neck. He has never squozen my throat, but he often threatens to "strangle you(me) again" when we fight. ("You better lock that ******* door before I come up there and strangle you again.") He asserts he has the right to do this. He has held me down, pushed me, and nearly broken down my door. He has told me that he doesn't care about me, he doesn't love me, that I'm not his kid, ect. ect. We have had full on physical conflicts that have lasted well over an hour.

3) All this takes a huge toll on my baby brother. They don't really fight with him, but he has to listen to all the horrible things that happen.

I am not a perfect kid. A lot of these horrible fights happen after I curse at my parents. But I am an Honors/AP student. I want to apply to the Ivy League next year. I feel like this home life is destructive, and ruining my chances of a bright future. I am trying to hold on to who I am, and I don't want this to drag me down. I now also have to focus on helping run the house in addition to my job, school, and after school commitments. I have to be there emotionally for my brother while dealing with tremendous guilt that I am putting him through this. I am also trying to navigate through a really trying time at school.

It's very confusing, because sometimes my dad and I can manage an OK, even a good relationship for a period of time. I have had breakdowns. These are met with derision. Then we will go to a family function, where my dad is effortlessly charming and charismatic. We even have a good time together. Then a few days later when we're home, maybe for some reason I tell him to "Shut the **** up," and a half hour later I'm trying to call the cops. I don't know if I am ready for emancipation or even applicable. What should I consider, what should I do? Do I stick it out? Do I have options? Or am I at fault here, not my parents?

Also, how do my options pretain to my brother?

[Mercy&Grace]

You can call CPS. They will investigate and decide if there is abuse
They may also remove you and your brother from the home and put you in Foster care
You may not be able to stay together

Emancipation isn't an option. Stop telling your father to shut the *** up. Try and get some counceling.

[Dogmatique]

Emancipation is not an option.

You need to take a long hard look at yourself and that's all I'm going to say.

[Fiametta]

I understand. I see my flaws sharply... thanks for your reply.

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You can delete my post. I see there is nothing to be done from a legal standpoint. Pointless... I will just try to continue on, try to be better...