greetings
i am an american who was raised in a middle class home albeit one that has done some moving around.
i have been homeless for the past 5 years since my father had me commited then kicked me out after i failed to perform in college. I have never recieved public assistance in the past five years or even asked for such help of any kind.
well, i wrote an essay on my life in order to come to grips with issues particularly revolving around my history with my family and it put alot of things into perspective. for example, the stated reason for having commited me was that i had learned to smoke pot in college instead of study... i was being treated for "marijuana addiction" in order to "help me"... yet writing the essay made it clear to me for the first time that it was a strategic financial maneuvor on his part... that and the many lies he had told me and my sibling since childhood when it came to finances... all made me see some things after all these years, particularly the kind of person that he is.
i recently called my parents to open some channel of communication and to ask my father to at least help me get back obtain an I.D. and take another crack at college, something i have yet to obtain after five years because i was born overseas although i grew up here and my parents live overseas now, the normal procedure for obtaining an i.d. has not worked for me; i do not know what hospital i was born in or why i need to know that in order to obtain an i.d., but it seems obvious that i need help in doing so. I was able to speak with my mom when i called and she told me to call back when my father was home as he was away. Well when i called back my father refused to accept the collect call charges; when i made a few more attempts the operator told me the line was busy. One final insult in a lifetime of them.
My father doesnt seem to understand that although i haven't gotten very far "ahead" in life, i didn't just sink into oblivion either; i have grown into an adult and he cannot treat me any which way with disregard and disrespect for my individuality just because i am his son; and i want to hold him accountable in some way. He had treated me thus for far too long while i wasn't able to understand that it was wrong, but today i am able to realize and state to whoever would care to listen that he is an asshole and a coward. What are my options here? Needless to say he is being totally irresponsible toward society here although he has had a convienient excuse every step of the way, mainly that it was my fault in some way, nevertheless i should be an asset to society not a liability, i wish i could post the essay that i wrote here but it is 5 pages long... ^^ i will just say that my PSAT scores were THE highest in my home state and there is no reason that i should be living like this... pls help.

