My doctor says I am exhibiting all the symptoms of anxiety disorder. I'm hesitant to have him give me that official diagnosis, however, because I didn't have these symptoms before these new responsibilities were given to me, and I don't want my health insurance costs to go up if I'm documented as having a condition. My health was fine in my old role.
I have to say, it seems very unfair that a new boss should be able to come in, put me into a completely different role for which I have no knowledge and that I should have to just accept it or quit and have no support while looking for my new job. I mean, would you tell your house cleaner that from now on she has to be a trial lawyer, with no training or prior experience, and that if she refuses she won't get any support while looking for a new job? I'm trained to book travel and do expense reports, basically I'm a secretary, and now they've told me I have to come up with strategies for advertising campaigns and I know nothing at all about advertising!! I sit in business meetings with top executives and I have no idea what they're talking about. It's as if they're speaking in a different language, they use such complex high-level business lingo. People in my company have a good opinion of me from my years of work there but now I feel like I'm letting everyone down and they're starting to look down on me because I can't do this new role, which I never wanted in the first place.
I don't want to sound like a whiner, but honestly, it just doesn't seem fair that they should force me into a new role in which I'm bound to fail and disappoint my colleagues. If I can just find another secretarial job like the one I had before, I'm sure my anxiety and insomnia will go away. I'm usually a healthy, level-headed person and don't experience much emotional distress.



