15 Year Old Gets Abused

[KenzieRose]

I am 15 years old and i get abused by my mother. Everyday and night. She does drugs and she has since my 8Th birthday party. She has almost killed me multiple times and i don't want to be in this situation. I never had a child hood and all i want is to get away from her. I have no clue where my dad is and i don't know my dad. I just want help. I am scared for my life. She is always having guys come over to sell her drugs to and they get their way with me. I don't like this i am scared for my life. All i ever wanted was to be be a happy family. My step dad is the one who got her to do the drugs and he abuses me. He will choke me out until i pass out. And she will just sit there. If i don't get her a needle or anything like that i get into trouble. She almost sold me for drugs until i ran away and i got arrested. I also got arrested for standing up to her and i pushed her off of me and she called the cops. I have no idea what to do or where to go. I have tried calling the cops many of times and they don't do anything. I got put into foster care for about one week and they released me back to her. I have bruises all over my body. Everyone at school makes fun of me because i don't fit in or what not but i don't know why? I have 3 other siblings and they seem to do everything right. I have no family members. If i did i would be moving in with them. My brother and sisters are always picking on me because i don't know my real dad and my mom just sits there and laughs with them at me. I don't eat that much. Maybe a meal a day and that's at school. But i never really eat anyways. I have walked to the hospital with a broken foot because she wouldn't take me and the hospital is about 5 miles away from where i live. I don't have a home i will never consider where i am a home. There is too many things wrong with this place and i cant take it. I wanna get out of here i just don't know where to turn to. CPS wont do anything either will the cops. I tried telling the school and they wont believe me. I am not allowed to have friends because they will give me a bad influence. I cant do after school programs or anything, i am not allowed to leave this place unless if i sneak out. I don't really have any clothes or nothing. I have a couple things but that is from me sneaking some of my moms money and buying the things i need. I have to pick up after everyone and clean the whole house by myself every Friday. If there is a spot of dust or dirt on anything i get to choose my punishment, which are sitting in a bath tub full of ice until i turn blue, or hot water right off the stove onto my head, getting beat till i am bleeding everywhere and i have to clean up the blood, or sleeping outside on the porch in the back. And once my punishment is done i have to clean the whole house again but this time right. But first she and my siblings have to trash it so i can learn my lesson. She doesn't like me. She will finish a thing of alcohol and hit me upside my head with the bottle and tell me to stop being a baby and pick it up. I don't know what love is and i never will. She has never in my life told me she loved me. She says why do i need love when my siblings need it more then i do. She calls me her slave or house cleaner and she is always reminding me that she wishes i was dead. And every night i go to bed i pray to god that things will get better but they don't. I cry myself to sleep just wishing there is someone out there that loves me and that can show me what love is.

[LawResearcherMissy]

If you are being abused, you need to call 1-800-4-A-CHILD.

Additionally, keep pestering your counselor at school. If you've been injured, physicians are mandated reporters - they are required by law to report your injuries to CPS if they are the result of abuse. Speak with your physician about your situation.