Oh my god. Well, I can understand why they encouraged me not to commit suicide.
Well. I really have to make some decisions. This will make it impossible to live anywhere.
My life is seriously over.
Do not get me wrong. I do not at all intend to compare my situation with those of the children who are victimized on these films. There is no excuse for what I did. Well, there are reasons, but no excuses.
OMG the thought of my family. My children. They are adults with children of their own now.
I cannot seem to think of a way out of this without everyone knowing.

