My question involves child abuse or neglect in the State of: Maryland
I am an adopted minor in the state of Maryland and am about to turn 17 years old.
In the past, my father has been abusive, both physically and emotionally.
I have contacted CPS and they have conducted an investigation. They found no cause for legal action. However, after their investigation, the physical abuse from my father stopped. The emotional abuse did get worse.
I find myself crying to sleep, I have lost many of my friends. He ridicules and yells at me in front of the few friends I have left. He constantly calls me fat and lazy, and tells me that he is convinced I will never make it in college. He threatens to "beat the shit" out of me and "send me back to my lazy, fat- ass birth-mother". He constantly calls me inappropriate names, and always has a need to know exactly where I am.
I can barely sleep anymore. My doctor put me on Lexapro (an anti-depressant) after I told her I had been having nightmares. However, after three months on the drug, I haven't noticed much of a change.
The truth is, I am terrified to go back to CPS. I am terrified to seek help again. I want to learn about the emancipation of a minor. I feel like this has gone too far. I have a job and I have one good friend who has supported me throughout this ordeal. I would pay for online help, but I'm scared of my father finding out where the credit card payment went.