Yes, I know my alcoholism is a problem. Rehab is not an option because I have too many bills to pay and actually never have blacked out drinking before. It was the fourth of July, and I went all out. Good news is I have started a program through my church called CASA(Christians against substance abuse) and am controlling my addiction that way. It refers to scripture for guidance and recovery instead of a typical 12 step programs such as AA that don't seem like would interest me. Also, I am getting closer to god this way which is a two-in-one!

Yes I know I am drowning in boiling water.Although yes, I am working to hire a lawyer before my court date in 3 weeks. I come from a very poor family and my father is on unemployment so it will be a challenge. He say "I will pay for everything to fix this" out of guilt. Reality tells me this is a longshot. Whatever happens will happen and I will have to deal with the consequences regardless. Im a good kid with great dreams and won't let anything stop me. The resentment and anger problems should resolve with counseling and if there is an assault charge on my record... I will simply have to pursue another dream. I only wish for a lawyer or person to possibly share a similar instance and the outcome. I need these not only for court but for my own peace of mind. Thanks for your comment and please people RESPOND!