First off, please excuse my punctuation
I have been on anti-depressants since 9 or 10, I was energetic, sociable, dexterous (I was in a young gymnastics class) and I did well at school. However, I got in alot of fights at school, so I went to see a doctor about my anger problem. The doctor said it sounded like I was stressed and I might be depressed, so I was put on anti-depressants. Within a few years, I gained alot of weight, I became unsociable, i am clumsy, and I get confused easily.
At 17 1/2 years old, I took myself off the anti-depressant, against the advice of my doctor. Family and friends agree that I get angry less then when I was on, I stopped gaining weight as rapidly, and i am a little bit sociable. However, its still hard for me to meet people, I get confused easily, and the headaches persist. Many people doubt my intelligence by the way I act. I feel isolated, and no one understands me. I have been told that people doubt if I could take care of myself. I surprised everyone when I scored high on a military test. I do not understand how other people think, I feel less like an outsider, but still an outcast of society.
I am now 18 years old; I have not made a friend without being introduced by someone I know in seven years. I dislike crowds of people, which I use to do well with, and I have had horrible headaches for eight years.
I feel as if anti-depressents have destroyed my life. I feel like i was cheated out of what were supposed to be the best years of my life.
I am angery at this, i feel like something was stolen from me. i feel like im not me anymore but a stranger that took my spot sometimes.
Does anyone know what i should do? Should i seek legal help?