My question involves criminal law for the state of: federal offense, possession of child porn.
i was coming back from afghansitan and stopped by ICE at the airport in the US. comes to find out i was on a watch list. i never, sold, uploaded, shared... iwas was in a very dark place at the time but I'm not making excuses. after paying my first attorney a pile of money he was purposely not telling me everything about my case, not telling me options that were off the table to extract even more money out of me. i went to another attorney to ask him what questions i should be asking the first attorney. i found out that i should have asked about a "motion to suppress the search" thats when the truth started to come out. i was on a watch list, most likely because i was reported by my ISP provider in my home state when he saw i was using peer to peer, like lime wire...yes I'm a dirt bag i get it, it comes from a bad child hood and a lot of self hatred, but i never hurt or directly hurt another living soul.

so now what. i don't trust any attorney, they all want $40k up frt to talk to the federal prosecutor. heres where it gets sticky. my first attorney told me i could run, go under ground in some 3rd works shit hole for 10 years and then come back with a clean slate. so, the coward that i am, i ran. since being on the run, i do know the fed knows I've fled the US. I've done research on my own can i have seen where there is no statute of limitations for possession of child porn. other web sites that lawyers chime in on have different point of views.

can someone offer any advice on this statute of limitation thing. does it matter that I'm on the run, if I'm a fugitive, which i am, do i keep this status regardless if I'm underground or not. please someone give me some advice other than "do us all a favor and eat a bullet" which is a serious option for me at this time

thank you in advance