I live in ohio. I have bipolar disorder and attention deficit disorder and am now taking the medications adderall, risperdal, and neurontin. I also believe I have asperger's syndrome to diagnose me officially. I plan to get a diagnosis for this from someone more familiar with it.
When I was arrested I was not correctly diagnosed yet and I was not taking effective medications. I had been diagnosed with add and depression by various doctors but no treatment seemed to work yet. I believe I had sort of a late adolescence due to the asperger's syndrome as we often do not reach full physical and mental maturity until age 30 or so.
I was arrested twice for domestic violence both times for "fighting" with my dad. The first time my dad admitted that he used physical force against me and that I did not use it against him. The officers twisted his words and arrested me even though my dad did not want to press charges. I did not get a lawyer because the prosecutor promised that I would only have a disorderly conduct conviction and it would not involve domestic violence. I asked him that specifically and he lied to me.
So I was arrested again about a year later and they were going to charge me with a felony due to the previous dv conviction, which the prosecutor lied to me about. In the station I told the police I was seriously mentally ill and needed to go to a mental hospital. All memories of this incident and actually almost anything that happened to me in those two years are blurry now due to the extreme symptoms of my illness i was experiencing at the time. It's not fun to experience a late adolescence at the same time as add and bipolar and asperger's. However at this time I did not have a correct diagnosis yet, or only a very vague one anyway from my incompetent psychologist.
Anyway the police and social worker basically acted like i was making up my mental illness. I became so anxious and scared that I began to bang my head against the wall in an attempt to knock myself out thinking that then they would have to take me to the hospital. They ran in and grabbed me and roughly strapped me into a torture chair. One yelled "you're not going anywhere." I believe one of them may have also hit me at this point but it is such a blur now. I would like to see a videotape of this but I am not sure if one exists. One of the cops told me if I did anything to piss them off again they would charge me with assault on a police officer no matter what I actually did. I was scared and I submitted to the officers. One asked me if I was a suicide risk and I said no even though I was considering it. I constantly asked for mental health evaluations and to go to a mental hospital but was denied. My parents tried to give me some supplements and protein powder that I was using to somewhat control my symptoms. I was not allowed these. A detective lied to me and told me my dad was not bailing me out.
When my dad inquired about bail he was told it was 10,000 even though it was actually 10 percent of that. When I was finally bailed out the whole experience of being charged with a bogus crime and the threats, intimidation, and ignorance of my internal agony had done a number on me and I was now much worse then I had even been before.
I was then served with a restraining order against my family! Me and my family protested this but the judge essentially decided to cut me off from the only support I had. I ended up in a hotel constantly thinking about suicide but not having the guts to do it. My dad hired me a lawyer who was incompetent and blamed the incident on my occasional marijuana use even though I only smoked it as self medication for my symptoms. She basically ignored what I told to her to do and I guess did what my dad told her to. I was never informed that she was just going to ignore me and do whatever she wanted. I was convicted of misdemeanor 1 assault and put on probation.
The stress of all the persecution got to me and I eventually snapped and went crazy cutting my head out of baby pictures and such. The police were called and this time the officer was somewhat nice and let me check myself into the mental hospital rather then being involuntarily committed. Here I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder even though every previous shrink had said I was not bipolar. Later I was diagnosed with add as well and I will be diagnosed with asperger's as soon as I find someone who is familiar with it. I am now on the medications adderall, risperdal, and neurontin and I am also still taking my supplements and trying to live a healthier lifestyle. I feel almost normal now ( well normal for me anyway.)
I believe the police and social workers I saw committed misconduct by not admitting me to the hospital when I was constantly asking to go and ignoring my symptoms. Also denying me my supplements was just plain wrong. I was definitely verbally and I believe physically abused by cops as well when they strapped me into the chair. They kept saying I was lying about my mental problems. Even my lawyer didn't believe me and thought I was just a pothead or something. Now that I am on the correct medications I feel no desire to smoke pot whatsoever. It took me being pushed to the edge by the system and completely losing whatever sanity I had left for them to finally admit that I wasn't lying about my mental illness.
At both of my trials I was completely out of it and not lucid at all. The prosecutor took advantage of this and tricked me into pleading guilty at my first trial even though he had no case as my dad was going to testify how the police twisted his words and that I used no physical force against him. In the second trial my idiot lawyer just ignored me and blamed everything on marijuana. The court didn't even know I smoked marijuana until she brought it up!!! I basically feel that I was taken advantage of by almost everyone in the system who refused to recognize my serious mental problems. I begged and pleaded to no avail. The harassment in jail and the restraining order cutting off contact with my family only made my illness much worse. I believe I am now suffering post traumatic stress disorder from the entire incident and I am going to ask a doctor if I am right as soon as possible.
I did not complain about this as much until very recently, as that's how long it took to get me on the right medications so I could finally see clearly exactly what had happened. Now I think it's too late for me to complain about anything that happened even though my mental illness is the reason I didn't complain officially before!! The whole situation is completely ridiculous and I never should have been charged with either crime as no one wanted to press charges but the moronic domestic violence law applied. No one wanted to believe my claims of mental illness because they have some sort of "personal responsibility" fetish, which basically means ha ha I'm successful and you're not and it's all your fault because you have the responsibility for your own life. Yeah I'm responsible for the genetic defects that caused me to have three different mental illnesses combined into one hideous super illness. The problem I guess is that I am very smart and well spoken and this makes it hard for people to believe I am actually mentally ill, even though the things I am saying are whacked out. They think I must be manipulating them but the truth is I am just smart and crazy at the same time. I am outraged at my treatment as well as that of other mentally ill arrestee's. The mentally ill in this country are treated like animals and people seem to think that it is our fault and if we tried hard enough we could just "snap out of it." I have become extremely cynical and want nothing more then to get revenge legally against my tormentors but I bet it would be impossible. I'm still going to try though just because it gives me some happiness to be fighting the good fight even if I know I can't win. At this point our country is basically fascist and minorities such as black people, latino's, and mentally ill are treated like the nazis treated the jews. Yeah our prisons aren't much better then the concentration camps, and places like abu graib might be even worse. People are arrested for ridiculous crimes like possessing drugs and if they are poor, they have no recourse. The whole love affair between money and justice is just obscene and has no place in a so called "free" country. I hope people wake up eventually and rise up against these injustices, (not violently), because I don't like thinking of the country I grew up loving as a fascist empire. Someone once said you could get a sense of the health of a society based on their prison system. Well based on ours our society definitely does not pass the "civilized" test. Our culture right now is at a grade school level and fully grown men and women have no critical thinking skills whatsoever and they talk about who will win American Idol and really get excited about it. They also vote for George W. Bush because he reminds them of themselves, they like having a leader as dumb as them because it makes them think maybe they are not so stupid after all. I seriously think we should have a test to make sure people are informed on issues before they vote. A significant percentage of people actually believe we found wmd's in Iraq. And they are the ones deciding who will run our country? We now torture people routinely and bush ignores any law he wants. Also there are so many laws on the books now that it is insane to say that ignorance of the law is no excuse. People have been put on the sex offender list for urinating in public even if they did it discreetly. This cannot stand! I really do not see that we are all that different from Nazi Germany and the other fascist countries at this point. I don't know how this turned into a rant like this but I believe every word in it. If you want to delete it that's fine but I am just outraged by not only my treatment at the hands of our "justice" system, but the treatment of any minority or even the few times a W.A.S.P. is railroaded as well, although that is extremely rare. Oh well I am going to consult with some lawyers and see if there is anything I can do about this persecution I received but I doubt it, because I was mentally incompetent at the time of the incident and thus unable to complain about it. Now that I can think clearly again it is too late to do anything. Even though everyone in the system was WRONG about my mental illness they don't have to worry about ever being called on anything, and now I have domestic violence permanently on my record. I think my only recourse for revenge at this point is too get on disability and get some of the money the government owes me for trying to ruin my life. That sure is some pathetic revenge though.